Words Of Chaos...
Lost in Spike
Please don't die of shock. Hi everyone! Yes its been entirely too long. Lots of stuff has happened since I was last here. I'll hide behind a cut cuz its a lot and if you don't want to read you can pass it right on by lol.

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I recently got into the show Shameless. Anyone watching this?  I even started writing a little. A new fandom but people seem to be enjoying it and that's great.

I hope everyone is doing well and finally thawing out after the hellish winter we all had.

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Current Location: home
General Spikeyness: weird weird
Current Music: Whatever it takes - Lifehouse

This last month has been hell on wheels. I have been on and off and I apologize. Work has been nuts and trying to get ready for graduation(s) has been tough. Gabe graduated 6th grade which still floors me how do I have a 12 year old?  Friday was my last day of work until September. Yes I am a teacher however I never take the summers off. This summer I am off not fun I might add. I am getting knee surgery on Wednesday ... yup the day before the 4th of July which happens to be one of my fave holidays. I fell a few years ago pretty bad and messed up my knee. I aggravate it every once in awhile and I did again in the beginning of June. I was dancing the "Gangnam Style" with my kids, put my foot down and my knee gave out. My aide caught me and I was hyperventilating by the time she had me sitting down. I got yelled at by her and my boss's mom and was told to get my ass to the dr.  So being the good girl who listens to her elders I went. I have a complete torn ACL and a torn meniscus. So Wednesday I will be having these issues repaired. I'm not gonna lie I am freaked out.  I have never been under before and that freaks me out. I had to go to the surgery center yesterday and I asked the nurse a million questions. She must have thought I was crazy especially when I asked if I would be wearing clothes during surgery. Lol. The only times I have been in the hospital was to have babies. So naturally I was wondering if I would be nude.

Good news is yes I will be off all summer. I can write, I can read all the fabulous stuff everyone has been writing, I work on stuff with my kids, I can be less stressed. Bad news is I am house bound for a bit. It's my driving leg so I wont be driving right away.

I'm nervous and I'm trying hard not to be. I hope everyone is well and enjoying their weekend!

Current Location: home sweet home
General Spikeyness: nervous nervous

by Jerzeyanjel
Willow/Angel season 2
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I am thankful to all those who have served, are serving or have died serving our country. Saying thank you is not a strong enough word for how grateful I am to those protecting our country. God Bless America!

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General Spikeyness: sleepy sleepy
Current Music: Glee

Who knew looking for a house would be so time consuming? I know I didn't. Naive I am. We have been searching since February and still have no found what we want. I won't even look at the website of listings anymore because we have literally seen everything that is for sale in our price range. It sucks and it's depressing. Anyways I have a ton of updates to read and catch up on which is good. I need some good reading!! Hope all is well.

General Spikeyness: blah blah

Here's the next installment of my Season 6 Rewrites.Things have been hectic with the house hunt and now the kids baseball season. Still haven't found a house. Found a nice townhouse though. We will see.

You've Lost that Lovin Feeling
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Imagine my lovely surprise opening my email and finding out that I have been nominated at the SunnyD Awards! My season 6 rewrites have been nominated for Best Series and Just a Kiss was nominated for Best Conventional Pairing! Thank you tons and snuggles to whomever nominated me!!


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Current Location: home
General Spikeyness: happy happy
Current Music: You've Lost that Loving Feeling - Glee

I've seen this all over my lj friends lists and thought I would do it too.

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It kind of shocks me how much I do not have posted on my lj. Hmmm... may have to remedy that.

I am shocked and saddened by the events that have unfolded today and as I said on my FB I am scared for my children. My heart goes out to all those in Boston and everyone else who is affected by this.

Current Location: home
General Spikeyness: shocked shocked
Current Music: News


I think we all feel the same way about velvetwhip. She is always there in our darkest days to make us feel better. She is there to help when needed and there to cheer us on when we get discouraged. I do not know where I would be without this wonderful woman and I am so grateful to have her in my life. Thank you hun for being such an amazing friend and always being there when I need it.
:: hugs ::

So here's a wee token of my gratitude.

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Current Location: home
General Spikeyness: grateful grateful
Current Music: Heathers

That a new vacuum cleaner would make me so freaking happy! I love it! LoL.

I am itching to write like nobody's business and have started my Flooded re-write. But it's not what I want to write. I want to write a sad angsty Spuffy fic and Spike is demanding it be written. He has resorted to throwing a tantrum and is finishing off his third bottle of Jack. I should be nervous. We all know what happens when Spike gets drunk. I know I'll have to give into his demands but he is throwing so much at me that it's not just one thing he wants me to write but several. Angel is there too but Spike is just being too demanding so he is in the corner...brooding. That made Spike snicker.

House hunt starts again tomorrow with 3 houses that I will look at. I really like all 3 of them so we will see. We got a little more time since we decided to keep the kids in the same school district and our lease is going month to month (hopefully). I keep looking around my apt and counting the days til we have more room.

On a side note its beyond beautiful today in NJ. I hope everyone is having a nice weekend so far!

Current Location: home
General Spikeyness: amused amused
Current Music: 21 Jump Street

It's no secret that I adore velvetwhip and since she wrote me such a lovely little drabble last night (That she really needs to post because it was amazing) I decided to write her one in return.

Angel/Willow some Buffy
Rating: PG
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Current Location: home
General Spikeyness: happy happy

I'm not gone. I have just been up to my eyeballs in houses. I never knew how hard this was. Stupid me thought I would just find the house I wanted right off the bat ... who knew I was so damn picky! We looked at 6 houses today and the last one we liked...liked not loved. It was nothing at all what I wanted but it was nice. We signed the contract to put an offer in and then came home and decided we didn't like it. Thank god our realtor is amazing and told us to think about it over night before she put anything in. So that's done. We have a time frame which sucks too.  My son starts middle school in Sept and we don't want him going to the middle school in our district which is the reason we are busting our asses and trying to find a house. It's a complete pain in the ass. I wish there was a way to make it so much easier but alas there is none. And I know I shouldn't settle but it's so hard when I can not find what I want. Has anyone gone through this? Do you guys have any pointers? Patience techniques? Panic attack stoppers?

General Spikeyness: disappointed disappointed

Name: jerzeyanjel
Website: Lost In Spike
Back April 2014
I Won't Give Up
** I Won't Give Up **
by Jason Mraz

When I look
Into your eyes
It's like watching
The night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold
And just like
Them old stars
I see that
You've come so far
To be right
Where you are
How old is your soul?

I won't give up on us
Even if the
Skies get rough
I'm giving you
All my love
I'm still looking up

And when you're
Needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here
Patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars
They burn
Some even fall
To the earth
We've got a lot
To learn
No, I won't give up

I don't want to be
Someone who walks away
So easily
I'm here to stay and
Make the difference
That I can make
Our differences they do
A lot to teach us
How to use the tools
And gifts we got
Yeah, we got a lot
At stake and in the end
You're still my friend
At least we did intend
For us to work
We didn't break,
We didn't burn
We had to learn
How to bend without
The world caving in
I had to learn
What I've got,
And what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies
Get rough
I'm giving you
All my love
I'm still looking up
Still looking up

I won't give up on us
(No I'm not giving up)
God knows I'm
Tough enough
(I am tough, I am loved)
We've got a
Lot to learn
(We're alive,
we are loved)
God knows we're worth it
(and we're worth it)

I won't give up on us
Even if the
Skies get rough
I'm giving you
All my love
I'm still looking up

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